Assalamualaikum and Hello !

I just realized that the greeting i do in my videos are from my blogposts. And that proves how long I've been away from the good old blogspot. Also , I changed my url , how refreshing. I figured out that using your full name on for a url is not the best choice since the number of cyber crimes are rising rapidly. Oh well, people arent aware much of cyber crime back then in 2010.

But I'm not writing this post solely for the heads up on my new url. I just need to get my head together. I've been very pleasingly alone(sorry friends) for more then a month now , but girl needs to talk. Or I swear to god I'd go crazy. I shattered my phone out of anxiety. My phone slipped from my hand because I was jittery. Why I was anxious ? No idea at all. I also don't have my laptop , which is frustrating because I have so many ideas for fiction. And I need to post some videos in my channel.

I am so bored. I literally repeat the same routine day after day , waiting for my PT3 result. Although I know already how many A's I got , or predict , I want to hold three finalised results on my hands. And probably cry and leave tea marks on the papers.

What I'm about to write next might be so cringy , and if my siblings or cousins read this post , they will probably bug me all the time about it. Oh my goodness just thinking about it make me shivers. I dont do well with embarrassment. I hate it. Okay, so I created an alter ego for my self. Lol I know. I call her Sky. I got inspired by Zoe's book but just now decide to create one. Also because 'Permata' is a mouthful to say ti the barista. And 'Suraya' is too normal. I just want another name besides my really lovely one right here. I dont know ? I need to deal with my very low confidence somehow. If you read Girl Online , you'll know what I mean.

I miss writing so much. I have a billion words to spill out. But maybe , just maybe , it'll be on other posts. I'm too frustrated on my dad's phone's autocorrect to even deal with the keyboard anymore. I really , really , miss my beautiful phone.

So long , farewell.